Blogging in the New Year!

Hello Blogspot! ;D
It's been a while since I've blogged.I used to be write alot on MySpace,and some people(to my surprise)actually read my blog.I've been told I'm a good writter so I wanna write as much as possible and get better at it. :) So today is the first day of 2011,and this year the only resolution I made was to do everything in my power to be happy and enjoy life.Last year was..not so year.Those who know me personally know what went down.Basically,I had like this really tight knit group of friends,but then some people starting getting involved with "drama" and blowing alot of things out of proportion.They would frequently find a person,pick out their flaws,and regurlarly find ways to torment that person,such as trashing their doorsteps at night and confronting them in a group,that sort of immature thing.I never once though that I would be at the receiving end of such treatment,but once I made some decisions that the group didn't like,I immediately felt the back lash.In the end,out of the group,I found my one true friend.

In a way,it was really a blessing,because I know realize that being selfish isn't a bad thing.I had neglected myself for so long,I was robot progamised to be part of a group.

And plus,I found someone that would really,truly,unconditionally be my friend.
<3

My biggest challange since losing that group of friends was branching out and making new friends.Ugh I just feel so awkward and sometimes I make really dry,sarcastic jokes that people don't quite understand.It doesn't help that I also developed severe trust issues.But I am trying and talking to people and I have come to realize alot of the people I had ignored for so long because they were outside of my group,are actually really nice and interesting.So there's still hope for humanity!

But enough about my friends,let's talk about meeeee ;D haha ignore the ridiculousness of that comment since this blog is totally about me.

I'm eighteen(woohoo!)years old,living near Atlanta,Georgia.I'm an aspiring pinup girl.I like art,in all it's forms,but I really love language arts,particularly rhetoric language.I love the word manipulation and being able to make someone feel something just by reading it.I'm about to finish high school in five months(once again,WOOHOO!).I'm a novice urban explorer.Urban exploration is just the nicer name for tresspassing,breaking and entering,etc..just to enjoy looking around or photographing these hidden and/or abandoned spaces.I find them profoundly beautiful.I wouldn't find a fine or ticket beautiful though,so I'm careful about where I explore.

I don't know exactly what to do with my life after high school.

I really dislike this feeling I have of growing up and having no sense of direction.

I'm older but I feel like such a little girl who wishes she could forver have the direction of her mother and teachers.

I used to be in such a rush to grow up,but now the reality of "the real world" has really hit me.

What's a girl to do?!

I suppose I'll just gather as much optimism and wisdom from the people I admire and just venture out and have a taste of life.I'm young,I've got time.

I know it'll be rocky sometimes,but I have a good support system,although small,extremely reliable.

And for those of you maybe going through the same "growing of age",have experienced it,or just want to stalk me(just kidding,don't do that please XD),you can read all about it here.

Plus.I'll write about some other stuff I might find interesting. :)

So thanks for reading,if you made it through this whole thing,I'll be your friend.lol :P

Keep reading and I will post a new blog soon.Happy New Year!

-Connie Bunny
<3 xoxo